Well its later now....

So in a nut shell there was a boy who gave me the impression that he was interested. Come to find out that he really wasn't. Not that that's a big deal, everyone has that happen. Plus I just found out that he already has a boyfriend. Well at the final party it seemed like no one cared that I was there. I have never felt more alone in a crowd. I danced alone for most of the night and then when I couldn't fake a smile any more I left the party. There have been several things that built up to this. This just happened to be the breaking point. My life has been tossed upside down and I am still trying to gather all the pieces.

Here are a few of those pieces.....

-New Job
I just got a new position at work (not number 17.... the spread eagle) and it has been a hard transition. I feel like every day I get just that much further behind and its not getting much better fast. I know I can do this job and I can do it well but I feel like the transition has taken a lot out of me.

-Possible Move

On top of that, my room mate just bought a new house and is moving in to it. I have been living in the same place for 3 years now and having to move does not sound exciting. He gave me the option to stay where I am and find two people to rent with me. So far I have one friend who wants to but finding that 3rd is proving very difficult. I would just move to the new house if it wasn't for another "friend" who is moving in there as well. Not that I wouldn't be able to get along with him but it would be nice not to have to.

-Also known as.....


A few months ago my room mates friend Jason ran in to some financial troubles. He could no longer pay his rent so he moved in with us. In the beginning it was fine but he has started to treat me and those that I care about really poorly. A few months ago he told me to my face that my best friend Ryan was not welcome in my own house. Come to find out that he and Ryan have a little history. If the issue was only Ryan I could deal with that because clearly I am familiar with matters of the heart. Unfortunately he treats all my friends the same way. There is no pleasing him. Jason greeted a friend of mine who he had never met with a scowl a few days ago. This was a relatively new friend. He had never even heard of Jason before. Uber Classy Jason.... Je m’en fou.